And you thought Buddhist monks weren’t up on internet memes.

FTW – For The World. Okay, not really, but this is. Today we had a meeting of what will probably become the new board of Sirimangalo International in Canada. We agreed unanimously to go ahead with acquiring the land I posted about yesterday to set up a meditation centre in Manitoba.

So, that’s news – if nothing crazy bad happens, in a few months we should have five rooms for meditators of both genders and a large forested land for the cultivation of peace, happiness and freedom from suffering.

One thing we need is a steward; someone to arrange food, mainly. If anyone would like to take on this role for a time, please do let us know. You’d have to complete a month of meditation with us first, so it would have to be a multiple-month commitment. Sounds like we already have someone for June and maybe long-term, so there may be no need. The reason I’m putting it out is two-fold – first, always nice to have a backup, considering how important a role it is, and second, the more the merrier 🙂

If possible, we will try to focus more on long-term meditators than short-term courses, but all are welcome. I’m sure I’ll be teaching Pali to long-termers and training instructors in meditation, so lots to do.

Another thing we’ll have to look at is how much of a meditation centre we can support financially. I can’t get involved with finances, but I can say that without proper funding, we may have to keep the scale of the centre down. The group undertaking to purchase the land in question have been beyond generous, and it wouldn’t do to leave it up to them to cover maintenance costs as well. I’ll try to find some time to rejigger org.sirimangalo.org in the near future as well for the purpose of clarifying our budget.

That’s all; some good news for your rejoicing pleasure. I’ll put up an application form on the canada.sirimangalo.org page in the near future, so keep in touch and join our Canada mailing list if you’re interested in discussing our plans with us. For the world! (Yes, it really means “For The Win” – it’s an expression of exultation, which fits just as well here).

Peace 🙂

Let’s See

Lots of news… first, my brain seems to have rewired itself following the dengue fever, so apologies if this comes out muddled.

It looks like I’ll be in Canada in January… Ajaan wants me to go quickly and set up a monastery as soon as possible.  He said April is too late to start.  No time like the present, for sure.  From the sounds of it, he knows he can help me right now, and the future of course is not sure.

So, I get to trudge through snow again… hoping to get some thicker robes before then.

I’ve been thinking about all the good places we have now, and it seems like a good idea would be to spend some time in each.  So, if possible, I’ll be setting up some kind of rotating schedule, where I’m based in Canada most of the year and travel to Asia during the winter months.  I wouldn’t need to worry about extended visas then, just spend a couple months a year in Thailand and the same in Sri Lanka.

The reasoning is that, while neither country has been overly helpful with visas or monastic affairs, both have been very welcoming as a teacher.  The hope is that Canada will provide the freedom to set up a base, and the other countries can be used for scheduled retreats, where students can join at set times of the year.

sirimangalo.org needs some restructuring, hopefully that can be done in Canada.  Sorry if the info right now is confusing or incomplete.

We’re going to make some effort to decide on a place to set up a base in Ontario.  We’ve been talking here about whether renting a house somewhere as a temporary monastery might be a good start.  There is also support to potentially buy a small piece of land somewhere if we can find a suitable place… if anyone has any connections or suggestions in this matter, please get in touch.

Eva’s here with her daughter, a beautiful little girl of four who was in her womb when last she came to practice with me. Ajaan says she has potential.  She’s already doing walking and sitting with her mother.

Going to the forest on 26th.  Maybe taking some monks along, and someone from USA joining us.  Back to Bangkok around Jan 15, then off to Canada before 23rd.

Been spending the last month practicing and being with my teacher… helping with reporting, eating my one meal with him, etc.  Just like old times.  Been quite refreshing, but still tired more than usual.  Surely subzero temperatures will help wake me up.

That’s about it… still a bunch of videos to  publish on YouTube from SL, look for them over the next weeks.  Oh, and someone recently alerted me to the fact that I now have 10,000 subscribers on YouTube… that’s pretty wow.  Guess that’s a reason to keep making videos. 

Otherwise, more when travel plans, etc. are settled.

Peace to all.

Help Wanted

Tonight is the time for our regularly scheduled Q&A session on YouTube. Not happening. No particular reason comes to mind, but that the impetus to broadcast has disappeared from the mind.

Some interesting thoughts; first, about deciding on a place to live… is Sri Lanka the right place? Really like it here, no question about that, but not so sure it will be the right place to continue. It all has to do with other people, really; if it were just me, there would be no need to even think about moving. But in order to accommodate others, I need to be stable myself; here, as in Thailand, there seems to be no budging on the don’t-let-the-foreign-monk-run-the-monastery issue. Maybe that’s not even the problem; to really do this sort of work, I’m thinking a native passport would be necessary. There are many problems that can’t be tackled by a visitor – I can’t sign for people’s visas, for one, and I can’t get beyond the slightest bit out of line without fear that someone is going to decline to help extend my visa (think ordaining women, e.g.).

Another thought is about spreading the dhamma; asking myself what it would take to dispel the apathy that has taken over in that regard. Maybe it will pass, but it’s not even so interesting to write blog posts anymore…

Makes me think I need help 🙂 no, not so much mental as physical.

The first step in starting a Buddhist community is of course locating a place. I have the great fortune to have two monasteries at my disposal, one in Thailand and one in Sri Lanka. I have the great misfortune of being neither Thai or Sri Lankan. In non-Buddhist countries this wouldn’t really be a problem, but in Buddhist countries it makes me ineligible to run a monastery, provide visas for students, etc.

Wondering if there is anyone out there in say Ontario, Canada who would like to help set up a monastery on my home turf… wondering if there’s anyone out there in any non-Buddhist country with those sort of intentions. Sad in a funny kind of way how impossible it is to do Buddhist work in Buddhist countries. Not fully formed are these ideas. I’ve always thought about moving to a non-Buddhist country; we almost started a place in California after all… but now with the online community, I wonder if we could actually pull it off without relying on cultural Buddhists to support and control it?

Which brings me to another thought, that physical help has to be physical. Our online community is great, a real encouragement that there are good people out there interested in the same things I am. But it’s missing the physical. That’s what the online hangouts were supposed to add, but they didn’t really, not from my point-of-view. See, I still remember Doi Suthep, where we had ten to fifteen meditators from ten to fifteen different countries in intensive meditation practice every day. There is a real energy in such a setup.

What I think I need is a team. A group of people who are “here”, where ever that winds up being. So, besides seeking out ideas on a place to build a community, I’m looking for a community.

See, what I’ve noticed is that applicants for ordination tend to think of ordaining as just constant meditation with a little bit of study. So, they try that for a bit and find it so overwhelming they disrobe (or change their minds before ordaining) and leave. So, I’m not looking for people who want to run away from the world by ordaining, I’m looking for people who want to live. I don’t know how to better put it, but what I mean is people who are dedicated to meditation but as a means of understanding life… their life, not some hermit on a mountain’s life. People with skills, brains, brawn, whatever, who want to learn how to use their talents mindfully, not run away from them and pretend to be a saint.

It would be really nice to have a camera person, silly enough as it sounds. Because videos are a great way to spread dhamma, as we’ve seen, but it’s so silly having to set it all up to record yourself. We could use people who have knowledge about construction and computers, budgeting and scheduling; heck, whatever you are, the point is to take you as you are and put your life to good use. Maybe you think your life is being put to good use already; such people need not apply! For those of you who think, like I thought many years ago, that you are wasting your life, or not living up to your potential, come, make a career choice you won’t regret!

You see? The idea is to find people who want to really live their lives as Buddhists, not run away and hide in a forest for a while before deciding it’s just too extreme. I think the best way to approach ordaining is to take it as a means to learn about who you are, not to become someone else. It would be nice to find people who want to ordain with such an approach, but ordination is not really necessary, depending on where this all winds up happening… if it happens.

One thing that has become pointedly clear is that if you don’t do something, there is no reason to think it will happen. More specifically, life isn’t a Hollywood movie. There is no happily ever after waiting at the end – it might turn out like a Shakespearean tragedy… life often does. I can’t say that Sirimangalo International is going to be a great organization, worthy of my teacher’s namesake, but that seems no reason to be afraid to try.

So, come, let’s try something new. The worst outcome will be death; but it’s the only inevitability you’ll have to face – non-profits don’t pay taxes, after all.

I’m opening up two new forum threads to see who is interested, even just to offer thoughts, suggestions, etc. The first is on where to start:


The second is on who wants to help:


Join the conversation… if nothing comes of it, no worries 🙂 life is good, all is well, I’m really happy living a life of relative indolence these days. Indolence doesn’t seem so bad when no one is asking you to do anything 🙂

Peace to all.

Out With The Old, In With… More Of The Old?

The more things change, the more they stay the same, so the saying goes.  Worth keeping in mind; in the world of sankhara, the new is ever as the old.  On the other hand, this is what Buddhism attempts to address, in a sense; we strive for the unattained, a goal of extreme profundity, given the incalculable span and diversity of our existence.

In this sense, true change is to be welcome; more of the same would be just more samsara.

Much is changing here in new ways.  But first, some sad news; Nagasena is no more.  Maybe one day he will rise from the ashes with a new name and new robes, but the fire there is out now. It was a long time coming, but he disrobed on Monday, with the idea of finding greener pastures elsewhere.  May he find contentment.

So much for the old.  New news, though, is in the many people who have come together from around the world to work together on our organization.  I just want to say thanks and let it be known the burden-sharing is much appreciated, and will allow me to dedicate more time to teaching and less to administrating. 

This feels like something truly new, a system in place that will run itself and support a global teaching platform with sirimangalo.org as its base.  The potential for goodness is immense; may it come to fruition!

More new, we will replace a disenfranchised male novice with a super gung-ho female novice – Sumedha will always stick in my mind as the only one brave enough to complete our meditation on the roof during a lightning storm.  Today finished her all-night meditation for a second night, and said she hasn’t showered in a week.  Hardcore.

It’s new enough to ordain a male novice, but a female one?  I can hear the criticism already; I’ve heard it many times before.  What started with accusations when the first woman yogi came here to meditate (it was said we were sleeping together in the caves – true enough, her in one, me in another) may easily escalate into a full-scale scandal.

Never being one for prudence, however, I’m focused on the greatness of ordaining people who are keen for it.  The trip with Nagasena, though, has made me pause a bit, and we’ve agreed to make things a little clearer with Sumedha, like if we ordain you and get you a long-term visa, we do expect you to stay ordained and, yes, practice according to our teachings.

The moment I arrived in Sri Lanka marked a new chapter in my life; it gave me the hope that maybe I could find a culture that would accept me and which I would find acceptable.  After all the trouble with the aristocratic Thai and American cowboy cultures, I was truly in doubt.  Now, with everything coming together and very little standing in the way (save the unknown future), it’s hard not to feel some encouragement that maybe, just maybe, something new will be born from this samsaric mass of all that is old and rehashed.

On that note, a double haiku (a haitwo) to make up for missing last week’s:

old, tired, broken
clinging in desperation
mind makes new the old
bright, shiny and new
out of the ordinary
mind that clings no more

March Update

So, things are coming together in keeping the organization running; there is some coordination going on between the non-profit and the monastery, which should see the monastery regain its ability to finance the meditation centre. A budget is now up at the Org.Sirimangalo site, for anyone who is interested, though it probably should be converted to USD, still.

There is some indication, though, that the non-profit in America will have to be either reorganized or abandoned, since the people looking after it have moved on and are no longer involved in our activities. If anyone in America is able to take up the task of running the non-profit (basically filing documents with the IRS once a year), it would make a huge difference in helping the organization receive and use donations for the centre here.

In other news, the entire Sirimangalo.Org website has now moved to the cloud. I’m still not sure exactly what that means, except that it’s much faster now. Much thanks go to Peter for his kindness in sponsoring the server and helping us through the harrowing experience of moving 10 years and 20+ GB worth of data through cyberspace.

The last of our funded construction projects is almost finished; a bathroom for the two rooms above where I am staying – one of the rooms is occupied by Nagasena, so he will be happy.

Sumedha (ex-Meredith) is doing a review course, trying to let go of the excitement of her impending novice ordination – quite a task 🙂 At the end of the month, we’ll try to get her a visa, otherwise she will have to go to Thailand. I might go to Thailand anyway, to teach and visit Ajaan Tong, and Nagasena would like to go as well, so there may be a trip brewing for May.

Other projects have been slowed by the organizational issues and a minor cold virus that probably has something to do with the workload. So, many things will have to wait. Still memorizing the Bhikkhuni patimokkha and a little bit of book editing. Hopefully those will pick up now as the organization gets organized, and I can get back to teaching.